Adventures in Writing a Novel

Get the freak out! ;) #writing #amwriting #writerslife #writerproblems

It’s a little after one o’clock in the morning and I’m awake. I don’t want to be awake, but desire and reality sometimes never really go hand in hand. Or at least that’s how I feel, at times. So why am I awake? Good question, and one that doesn’t really have a simple answer. Well I suppose it does: because I can’t turn off my mind.

Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night and I can’t get back to sleep, the only thing I can do is get up and do something. Usually, within fifteen minutes, sleep beckons and I obey, but tonight is different. Tonight, instead of just perusing Facebook or playing a quick iPad game, I logged into my email, and inside I found an update for a blog I follow. It’s a book review for a historical fiction, just the kind I read the most because that is my genre. So of course, I begin reading and clicking and  reading and clicking and reading and clicking and suddenly, I’m on Amazon.

And that’s where the problem lies–with the reviews.

I can’t help but wonder about what is going to be said by people reviewing my novel. For some reason, whenever I read the reviews of another book I become very insecure of my own writing. Doubt rears its ugly head in my ability and my story. I begin thinking it was a big ole’ waste of time, some ridiculous quest, and impudent notion. What was I even thinking trying to write a novel? Why in the world did I think I could even do it? It’s awful and I hate it.

As exciting as it is to look forward to being published, it’s equally scary. At least, for me, it is. I know that I will never, no matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I work, no matter how I write my story, I will not please everyone. It’s impossible to do so. But the thought of seeing in black and white print horrible words about my work, plot, and characters is just really freaking me out. And, this feeling is only made worse by the fact that my readers are going to include my family and friends.

I guess, though, there’s no backing out now. LOL. The book hits the open market in a week and a half. All I can do is just grin and bear the bad with, hopefully, the good. Maybe, I should just reside in not ever looking at the reviews. Yeah, I know that’s not going to happen. I’m a bit of a nosy person when it comes to things like that. 😉

Set for release on March 19, 2014 from Soul Mate Publishing!

4 thoughts on “Get the freak out! ;) #writing #amwriting #writerslife #writerproblems

    1. Thank you!! 10 days is so short and yet so long. I feel on the verge of crawling out of my own skin every waking second. And it gets worse when I look at a calendar. LOL. Did you get your title issue worked out? When does your novel release?

  1. Oh boy, I feel ya, Angela. The heart sinks over bad reviews. I read the little tidbits you shared on your blog, and the writing is sound. To me, as long as the writing is sound, all opinions about the book’s storyline are merely that … opinions, not fact. I know it’s tough, but I hope you can get some sleep soon.

    BTW, I had a poem scheduled to go up in a contest over the weekend when you let me know about giving away my anthology. I do plan to put up your giveaway link tomorrow and Thursday (the day you said it was going up). I had to get blog posts up to ask people to go vote for my poem. If you get a chance, I’d love another vote. The link is on my latest post.

    Now, got get some sleep. 🙂

    1. Thank, Lori! I actually got the novel on the even page already. I was going to do the whole one day thing and I thought it would give people a better chance if I did them all early. I’ve got a couple of private emails from people about yours, wanting to know more. Yay! And, I’m going to go vote right now!! Good luck!! If you send me the link I can post it on my author page and ask for even more votes. Let me know.

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